I miss you. I look at your pictures and just break down and cry. I cry because it all seems like a bad dream. Just last year, I was pregnant with you. Never.... NEver... Never, did I imagine I would lose you. I can't even believe it. I want to wake up from this bad dream. You should be here with me. Looking into my eyes and making me laugh with all the silly things you do. I should be planning your first Halloween outfit but instead I am here. I am here missing you. Sometimes I get angry, most of the time I am sad... It just seems so unfair that you are gone. I carry you in my heart and thinking about you everyday but I wish I could physically hold you and kiss you. I know that I am your mommy and I am trying to be stron. I love you my sweet little boy.