Your Angelversary is around the corner. I don't know how to feel. I feel so sad inside to know that just last year you were in my tummy. I feel angry for not being able to protect you and sad that you will spend your first birthday in Heaven. They say heaven is beatiful and I hope to one day be there but why? why? why? why were you not supposed to be a part of our every day? To watch you grow and be a family. Yes, you are with us but I want to hold you and kiss you and squeeze you. I want to look into your eyes and comfort you when you cry. I want to be your mommy here on earth. My heart hurts so much my precious son. MY SON... I don't know how to accept that you are gone. I feel so sad. No words can explain this pain that I feel inside. I just love you..