Your Angelversary is around the corner. I don't know how to feel. I feel so sad inside to know that just last year you were in my tummy. I feel angry for not being able to protect you and sad that you will spend your first birthday in Heaven. They say heaven is beatiful and I hope to one day be there but why? why? why? why were you not supposed to be a part of our every day? To watch you grow and be a family. Yes, you are with us but I want to hold you and kiss you and squeeze you. I want to look into your eyes and comfort you when you cry. I want to be your mommy here on earth. My heart hurts so much my precious son. MY SON... I don't know how to accept that you are gone. I feel so sad. No words can explain this pain that I feel inside. I just love you..

I miss you so much... there are no words to explain.

A year ago today.. Oct. 27th 2012..I walked into the hospital asking for help. I knew something was wrong. I was leaking fluid but the nurse reassured me that everything was okay. She stated that it was not amniotic fluid but a yeast infection. I didn't have any signs of a yeast infection.. I told her that..... but without given the chance to see a Dr. I was sent home. I wish I could change the hands of time. I miss you so much...